God will be your armor

"There's a purpose to living. There's a purpose for all the good things you feel in life and all the suffering. But don't let the hurt be your focus. It's boring. Enjoy life and find your friends. Hug them like you've never hugged in years. Take moments and stop them in their tracks, only to marvel at them. Remember pain, but only to laugh at it and learn from it. Forget what others have done to you and move on. If they don't like how you float, then sink them. Every day is a a new song to the Lord. Sing it like you've never wanted to be quiet in all your days. Climb those mountains: shout His praise; speak the words that sting and stab at the limbs of dragons. Get out of your foxhole and face the heat of fire and the hurt of life, until you can't walk. Break all your limbs; limbs can be replaced. If speaking the Truth cuts, then let the blades and knives fly; God will be your armor." - Daniel Wilson

And on life goes.

Hello you people who actually still read my blog, even though I've been quiet on here again. Yeah, lets not talk about that, okay?

 

So, last week, it was my birthday, which means i had to celebrate a day of basically...getting old. Yes, fun times. I ate a lot and i mean a lot of good food, too much really, but you know, your only young once and all that. Right?

 

Last Thursday I finished college for the Easter holiday, yes finally, I'm just hoping the good old sun decides to appear sometime soon for us. So I have two free weeks now and absolutely nothing planned. Grand. Well nothing overly exciting. But, we do have a sponsored charity walk this Thursday that I'm doing with a bunch of crazy youth from church. So i guess i do have something to look forward to.

 

Who else feels like they don't have a life sometimes? I said that to someone the other day, and they were like, "But you do! You have Jesus!" and all that, so yeah, i should quit complaining and start rejoicing everyday...ya know, rejoicing, with loud music and gummy bears, and mental emotions where i cry about what a mess i  feel and then laugh uncontrollably with joy of Gods awesomeness. Yeah, that kinda rejoicing.

So yeah, i shall try and talk more. #Don'tSpeakTooSoon

 

And oh my life, Happy Easter guys!

 

- Jesus is alive - #ohyes

The old has gone, the new has come!

Last year taught me a lot. I'll admit, it was a very hard year, i went through a crazy amount of pain. Even just thinking about it can get to me, so that's why I'm determined not to look back but to keep looking forward. Gods got big plans! So i don't wanna miss anything while I'm too busy lingering about in the past.

 

Last year, a big thing i learnt was trust. I learnt how important trust really is. I was shown that i can't trust just anybody but only one or two special souls. Which I've managed to find :-)

I've also found that telling people everything is not necessary, if only i told God everything and ran to him every time something happened. God's got this amazing way of settling me and filling me full of a dreamy peace, and i then realise that what i think is massive at the time, is not really, it's a tiny little blockage trying to get in the way of my happiness and relationship with God, which is why its sooo important to take it to God!

 

In the midst of last years crazy happenings, i drew closer to God. Which is like, amazing! I had to really, I couldn't do a lot else but seek God and and grow nearer and closer to him, which is what he wants, so that he can do the same with me. In doing so, i felt freer to do so much more, i could unashamedly worship him and make his name known and be a light where i go. Which is what i want to continue to do. So i gotta stay closer and closer.

 

Anyway, I'm actually really happy right now and i don't ever want this feeling to go, like ever. To get to this place where i am now, has taken a lot of work and its not been easy. I've been longing for this deep happiness and contentment that I'd been seeking. I wanted to face everyday with a positive attitude, which i now do. (most of the time!) *wink*

 

I have my awesome God, my amazing and loving family and i have one or two incredible friendships! Which I'm soooo thankful for! :-)

 

Here's to 2013 and the rest of our lives!

 

xoxoxoxox

 

2 Corinthians 5:17

 

Ramblings on a Sat.

 

It's a Saturday and i don't have much to say. I went to sleep a little too late last night, but it was worth it because of the reason. I spent my time talking to a very special person. So i woke a little late, but that's ok really. I'm presently on my fourth cup of tea today and I'm trying to focus my mind on some college work that really needs doing. At the moment i just want to go for a walk, but i know that's got to wait because, hey, education comes first. Of course.

 

Whats God doing in my life lately?: He's  trying to teach me patience.....sometimes i try and push things that i want, rather than giving my desires to God and leaving them with him, so he can do what he wants with them. I still haven't fully got hold of this, but I'm getting there ;-) God is amazing, i love all the lessons that he teaches us, his children, there's always something new to learn and we will never stop learning and God will never stop teaching us, which is great, 'cus we all need that, Gods guidance, and teaching, and lessons. Its good for us and makes us stronger.

 

I just want to wish Miss.Ntwalengwa happy birthday for today and Mr.Nicklin happy birthday for yesterday. Praying that you have another blessed year.

 

 

 

 

 

 

xox

Singing "Hallelujah!"

This is for the broken. This is for the ones hurting. Close your eyes and just imagine for a moment. Never being lonely, never being down again. Feeling like the world's been lifted off your shoulders.

There's a place where the old will be new and the troubles of this life will be through. I'm tellin' you, I'm tellin' you...We'll be there soon..

One day we're are gonna fly, free from the weight of this life. Heaven's mercy flowing through us. We'll all be lifting our hands, with every reason to dance and we'll be singin' "Hallelujah!"

Can you imagine never seeing war again? Peace and joy and life in every single heart. Say goodbye to sickness, farewell to all our sin. We're giving praise to the One who loved us from the start.

We wrote this for the broken and the spiritual thirsty and everyone who needs to know that they worthy. Sing songs to our Daddy, give Him glory and praise and sing forever cause we know our God has conquered the grave! Everything is made new. Troubles fade away. Joy is gonna break through.

(Song credit)

 

xox

Fully consumed

 

>>>Over the past few months, I've just begin to realise how much i want and need more of God. So many times i put other things in the way, things that causes blockages, stopping me from getting closer to God, not intentionally, but without even knowing. But i just can't do that any more.

 

I'm tired of just going round in the same cycle, one week getting really excited and fired up about God and living the right way for him, then the next week, having a bit of a downer and doing things that perhaps aren't quite pleasing God and binging glory to his name. I don't wanna be like that anymore, i don't want to do it anymore.

 

I just want so much more of God, i cant even explain. I love him so so so so so much, i want to be completely consumed by him and full of him! I want him to be my absolute everything. I want my whole life to be about and for him. Everything! Instead of relying on people, i want to rely and should be relying fully on God.

 

As my tears begin to fall as i write this and as they have many times before, i offer them to God, asking him to take them and see that they are real, from my heart. I just love him sooo much and want to be sooo much closer. He's so amazing and he's done so much for me and so many other people. The least i can do is fully surrender my life to him.

 

I love you Lord, thank you for this life and help me to glorify your name more and more. Fill me up God. xox

 

P.s A huge thank you to Hannah for guest posting on my blog! Love you!!

The sun is rising.

I've been wondering around just pondering and thinking about God, people, life, faith, prayer...I guess I've had a lot on my mind and had a lot of torment that I'm not what i should be and the enemy has been using people to get to me and try and pull me down rather than build or lift me up.

 

When i look back at these past few weeks, they seem to be full of all that rubbish, all that rubbish that i shouldn't have been carrying around with me, just things that people had said to me that I'd been holding onto. Or things that I'd felt or seen, i just wasn't letting go of, i was praying and forgiving and releasing and giving it to God then taking it back again and letting it get to me, which i know was like stupid. It's crazy how much stuff that we let get to us, isn't it!? Even just the little things. I laugh about it now. lol. But it is quite crazy really.

 

But also in these past few weird weeks, God has been working in me and changing and molding me into the daughter he wants me to be. Which can sometimes be scary because you can feel yourself changing and you feel different and you want to tell everyone but you cant always really explain what Gods doing in you because you cant see it but you know its happening because you can feel it! Incredible!

 

God has been using people to bless me and touch me and speak to me too. Different speakers have given words that have spoken to me. About two weeks ago me and some of my friends went to a meeting to hear a Guy preach (Bishop Eddie) and we all got prayed for and i got really emotional and just cried, then laughed, then cried some more then kept laughing! Then i got the amazing chance to see Hannah get filled with the Holy Spirit and get really touched too which really blessed me!

Then this week a guy called Peter Gladwin (see website) came to speak at our church and his testimony is so amazing, and he gave me a word that God had given him at the end too which really just blew my mind!
Then the worship that Daniel was leading was brilliant too, i love worshipping God and its great to see how God is using Daniel to lead people into worship in such a way! True worship is amazing!

 

So there's a lot happening, all good, all different, all exciting!

 

"The sun is rising"

"People get ready"